*deflates*
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suaperughrh I feel so cruddy lately. my backs feeling better, it's just my health now. I don't even enjoy the nursery any more. I mean the kids are lovely but it's just the people. I get no feedback on what I'm doing and no one talks to me during the day, not even at lunch when we're all sat around a tiny table. it's the most awkward thing ever. it's not like I don't even try. and because I've been ill I've missed out of a couple of weeks on and off and I ring up and say I'm sorry and they're just like "okay, bye" and I'm like "?!?!". I say to them how sorry I am and how I feel like I'm being a massive let down but they're just like "yeah, okay". so I just give up, I don't really want to go back there. I was to go to a nice nursery and work with babies instead of young kiddos. and I want to do less hours, too. and I'll have to because I need a freaking job. I start my NVQ monday and I found out that instead of being 5 minutes away it's actually like 40 minutes, because my advisor gave me the wrong place. so that's a pain in the ass.
and to make things worse I've completely missed my Job Seekers appointment. I hope it doesn't damage my claim in any way. I've been trying to call my advisor for about an hour, staying on the phone 2 minutes at a time but he's not been picking up... ughrhrh! *pissed*
also I've realised how many hairs I still don't have :P my hair folder is about 380MB. is that big? IDK. I have about half the hairs I used to but I'm gonna be changing that today... I need to get some back. I've also decided to stick to my old eyes... I mean... I haven't been 100% with any of the other eyes and I have just the right amount of colour choice with them. and some are really vivid colours which I love. however I'll still be uploading the ones that I resclera-d soon. I still have a lot of sims to upload, too. I just feel like restarting my LJ again :|:|:|. but I won't, I really cba. I might just delete all or most of my entries and start fresh.
BUT IS THERE ANY POINT ): because LJ is mighty quiet lately. and I kinda feel like deleting all my posts on tumblr too so I can have it as a simblr. IDK, I wish I could make up my mind sometimes.
and to make things worse I've completely missed my Job Seekers appointment. I hope it doesn't damage my claim in any way. I've been trying to call my advisor for about an hour, staying on the phone 2 minutes at a time but he's not been picking up... ughrhrh! *pissed*
also I've realised how many hairs I still don't have :P my hair folder is about 380MB. is that big? IDK. I have about half the hairs I used to but I'm gonna be changing that today... I need to get some back. I've also decided to stick to my old eyes... I mean... I haven't been 100% with any of the other eyes and I have just the right amount of colour choice with them. and some are really vivid colours which I love. however I'll still be uploading the ones that I resclera-d soon. I still have a lot of sims to upload, too. I just feel like restarting my LJ again :|:|:|. but I won't, I really cba. I might just delete all or most of my entries and start fresh.
BUT IS THERE ANY POINT ): because LJ is mighty quiet lately. and I kinda feel like deleting all my posts on tumblr too so I can have it as a simblr. IDK, I wish I could make up my mind sometimes.
